|controls_lady (controls_lady) wrote,|
@ 2012-09-07 11:00:00
My friend's Dad and angry at myself over email.
Got an email from one of my best friends early this morning; her Dad has not been doing well for some time and now has taken a very bad turn for the worse. He's currently in the hospital, and will probably never go home. If he gets released it will be to a nursing home, but odds are good he won't make it to the nursing home.
I feel badly for her, and at the same time am angry at myself. Why? Because I had just been, not 2 hours before, at Google mail's website for the account, skimming through and deleting several hundred emails that had backlogged for some reason. I have to do this often, being on dial up. She had sent the email five hours from when it hit Thunderbird. It could have very easily been in the ones I deleted, and I never would have known.
There's nothing I can do to physically help her. I feel guilty because I haven't been a good friend the past couple of weeks anyway, been wrapped up in several other things.
Now I know I need to tackle decluttering email again, something that constantly seems to keep popping up - this time was serious. Plus, I have to know, am I the only person in the world who does not spend hours with her friends on IM every night? I know several people who do, and I don't see how. And I just feel like I'm peeling myself like an onion, until there's nothing left but some boring drone.